Wow. I haven’t Tumblred in like a million years. I don’t really think I’m gonna Tumblr anymore anyway. I’m just here to rant. Just one of those nights where you think about your life, what you wanna do with it, how you gonna live it, etc. I just want the perfect life. I want to be a famous footballer, with a wife that loves me as much as I love her, nice, cozy house, and enough money to live comfortably. Basically, I just want two things. Football and love. I want to succeed in football. I want to find my true love. I don’t know what the future holds for me and that sucks because all I wanna do right now is just fast forward till I’m like 21 or 22 or whatever. All you have in life is yourself. You gotta look out for yourself. Yes, family and friends will be there. God will be there. But who controls you? You. You alone make your own decisions. People influence your decisions. They change your mindsets on certain things but ultimately it’s your choice. You get to choose what you wanna do. I’ve been through tons of shit. Sure. I could cry and moan about it all the time. What good would that do? Nobody gives a fuck anymore. You have to stand on your own two feet. Life will always fuck you up. A very important person in my life once lived with this quote, “Love is pain”. I was very angry because I didn’t think love should be that way but now I realize that it could be right. If you really want something, you’ve to suffer before you actually get it. That’s life. “Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for”. I’m the type of person that gives his absolute everything in something that he really wants. I’ve learned throughout all the things that have happened to me that shit will always happen. You just gotta man up and move on. I’m going to keep on giving and giving and giving until I can’t give anymore. Yes, it will hurt me but that’s life. You want happiness? Go get it. You want your dream? Go chase it. You want money? Go earn it. I don’t know what’s gonna happen in my life. I don’t know what I’ll be in the future, who I’ll marry. All I know is what I want right now and I’m not giving it up. I’m not that type of person.